If I lose everything in the fire, im sending all my love to you.

I wait.

Like Ive been waiting.

At first I expected this to be a dream, but Ive been awake.

Its not waiting anymore.

Its not contained anymore.

Its not just a thought in my head or a wish in my heart.

Its real.

I can say it out loud and its true.

I'm irreversible.

You've given me something that's irreversible, and astounding.

This summer I plan on going to Kennywood.

With who yet, I don't really care.

Point is, I want to face a fear Ive had for a long time.

I'm terrified of Ferris wheels.

Maybe its because when I was little I was forced into one that looked like a cage.

Ive never been the same since.

But I want to get over it...but not alone.

While I wrote this is was thundering and lightning.

The sky is really dark and ominous.

I wish it would just rain.

I wish I wasn't sick so I could go take a walk in it.

I would be perfect to just lay here; with you.

(dont leave, its so much better when you're with me)