I want the truth.

I want the truth from you

Give me the truth, even if it hurts me

I want the truth from you

Give me the truth, even if it hurts me

I know that this will break me

I know that this might make me cry

You gotta say what’s on your mind, on your mind

I know that this will hurt me

And break my heart and soul inside

I don’t wanna live this lie

-GC

Open Your Eyes.

Color my world, dear.
Give me something new to discover.
Show me something Ive never seen before.
I want an experience
Let me in
To your universe
I want to see things from your eyes.
I just want to be with you
In the front seat of your car
Take me anywhere
I don't care
We could be the ones who make it
Yeah we could be the ones that make it out
Alive.

Love Buzz

Ok.

So heres how it is.

I want to be with you forever.

And I dont mean the petty bullshit high school version of forever.

I mean I cant picture my life now that youve come into it.

I want you.

I want to have money problems with you.

And hang up old photos on our walls.

I want to laugh about the times were living right now, in 40 years.

I want to travel the world with you.

I want you to be the last person I see before I close my eyes

And the first face I see when I open them again.

And everything in between.

I want you to be who I argue with over which couch we put in the living room.

I want to watch pens games and steeler games with you.

I love you, more than I can even begin to explain.

Ive figured out I cant change your past, but I want to change your future.

I want to be apart of it.

But only if you want me to be.

"When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. "

Dont Let Me Down.

I'm tired of peoples empty promises.
Its to the point where I don't even get my hopes up, I just assume...

yeah, another empty promise.

People shouldn't make promises.

Because life changes. Circumstances...change.

Feelings, change.

Nothing is guranteed.

I'm about to sound like an over confident bitch probably but

I keep my promises.

If I tell someone that I will do something for them 9.5 chances out of 10

I fucking do it.

And if I dont, its because the person changes their mind.

I don't see whats so hard about it, you just make the promises you know you can keep.

Instead of getting peoples hopes up.

To be completely honest I'm begining to get tired of being let down.

Maybe I just expect to much of people.

Maybe I just need to lower my standards.

Maybe I just need to not hold my breath.

Because it always seems like people never remember the promises they make,

to me.

The sweetness.

When I signed on to my blog...my hands were literally shaking with anger.


I was pissed beyond belief. And totally ready to rant and ramble about how I didnt need anybody, and that a person was being a hypocrite. Saying they wanted to spend time with me more...but apparently no one else could at the same time...whatever. Along with the fact I basically had the worst day of my life and I couldnt even depend on my "friends" to make me feel better.

Thats all insignificant now. Every. Damn. Bit of it.

I glanced down to see one of my "followers" had updated their blog...so...I read it. Cus their one of my most favorite people.


Their blog made everything that happended all day go away. I dont know why but...just reading it, made me feel like I mattered to someone.


This persons probably reading this now...and I just wanted them to know I love them. And that they always find a way to make me smile [especially when I dont want to] and I dont know what Id do without them.


You dont even know...you made me feel better without even knowing, or trying for that matter. You're my best friend.

I needed that today.
Thank you.

You are not spiderman!

I was a going through my computer today.
I stumbled across this.
It literally made me laugh for a good 10 minutes.

Hah. Good times.

Spinning lights, don't be scared.

You will always be my constantine.

My perfect brand of nicotine

My reason for breathing.

When the room keeps spinning.

I close my eyes.

And feel your skin.

Memories.

Im all locked in.

Im afraid to answer the telephone.
Because I know that Itll never be you.
Theres hope in the air.
But I dont seem to care.
Please dont think that this was easy.
I think it was the toughest thing since phasing.

Its time for me to move on.

Time for me to move on.

To something better than this.

Nothing could be better than this.

So I want to find out together.

We could be the kids who get out alive.

All those nights we talked.

Paid off.

Yeah im still in debt.

Its impossible for anyone to hurt me

Like you do.

Like you did.

[I dont know when I wrote this, its a little older.]