Hey Jealousy.

jeal⋅ous⋅y 
1. jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against anoher's success or advantage itself.
2. mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.
3. vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.
4. a jealous feeling, disposition, state, or mood.

Jealousy. It can make you say things you don't mean.

Act in ways you don't want to.

And be a person you want no one to see.

There are tons of different ways and people to be jealous at.
You can be jealous of someones brilliance, money, success, love, or past.

But. Its when you show this that usually causes a problem.

You can call someone you'vebeen married to for 20 years, soon to have an anniversary, a "fucking whore."

[good one, and to think you used to be someone I thought did no wrong.]

You hurt people.

Intentionally.

Your head feels like its about to explode with anger when you realize its not anger at all.

Then, you set a goal. A goal to make digs and say things you may or may not mean just to get into this person head.

If your jealous of someones money, you make them feel bad for having it.

"You're to good to sit with us, we should sit over there."

[tha was one of my favorites...stupid assholes.]

Someones success, degrade them. Make it seem like they have it easy. Or that they don't deserve it.

"Yeah your doing good now but ya know we just started."[thanks]

I'm a victim of intense jealousy of a persons past.

I'm sorry. I just am. Its never going to change.

I make a person feel like their to blame, when in reality I know they couldn't change it no matter how badly they want to.

But jealousy, messes with your psyche. You feel like if you can just make this person feel worse about this then you will have succeeded, that you win.

It makes me feel worse.